“Saying goodbye doesn’t always mean that you are weak, sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go..”
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Good news : Laptop dah ok!!!
Bad news : I used my own money to pay for the service..cost me RM1436…my own money!!! and now i only have RM200 in my ASB…sedey giler….ok la coz i learn to appreciate things more…tapi…all my savings, gaji2 dari 2-3 part time jobs habis mcm tu je…serius aku down giler babi….huhu…sampai aku dapat balik my RM1500, then only i’ll be whole again…aarrgghh!!!
Neway, enuf with the laptop…so many things had happened since my laptop buat hal…which i better keep it to myself (n few people yg mmg tau)…
Since the event took place…i kept wondering to myself…are ‘we’ making the right decision???..is this the right path??..i just don’t know what to do, or where to go next…i’m not sure whether this is suppose to be..or are we just hanging on and linger to something that is no longer there…???..
A friend told me, “close your eyes, free your mind and think…is this what you really want??“..
I did close my eyes, but it was hard to free my mind…i think a lot..n it seems like i cant stop thinking about everything…
Sometimes, people linger in relationships that are dead, out of fear of being alone or to postpone the inevitable grieving process that accompanies endings…But again sometimes, we need to linger for a while, to prepare ourselves, to get strong and ready enough to handle the change…and i don’t want all these to be the reasons we are still together…i want the feeling to be real…not because we are afraid of what will or will not happen…
I know and understand that all the decisions made, and the path chosen will lead us somewhere…n whether we are in the right track or not, whether this path will lead us to more happiness or sorrow, we just have to live with it, to make the best out of it, so we won’t regret our decision. But if we’re not meant to be, and we really have to go on our separate ways, i wish (hard) it wont be…now…and when the time comes,i wish i’ll have enuf strength to let u go, n u’ll have enuf strength to let me go…God bless us…
