~nothingness~..huhu

” Sit quietly, doing nothing, spring comes, and the grass grows by itself” – Zen…
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I cant stop thinking, how wonderful it cud be if can live my life just like the quote above…. doing nothing and have everything….

But, in one case, i’m living my life just like the above quote, “Sit quietly, doing nothing, and my butt grows by itself”…haha..at least something does grow…

Currently, my life is about nothing. Nothing’s good, nothing’s bad, nothing’s important, nothing’s great, doing nothing, takes nothing for granted, nothing to watch on the tv (xcept the nanny..huhu), nothing to talk about and nothing for everything… As if i’m living in the world of nothingness…(oh..poor me…)..hhmm…

Rase pelik giler…when i was in my final sem, i got 2 part time jobs…and now when i’ve finished my study, cari keje part time pun malas giler….sekarang cume jadi part time tutor in a tuition centre near my house (3 minutes driving distance) once a week (monday) n only for 2 hours… and itu pun malas giler n rase nak quit je…tapi bile pikirkan sape nak bagi rm200(sikit tuh) utk mengajar 4 only 8 hours per month, teruskan la jugak…

But still, rase down gile, malas gile nak wat pape….next week ade appointment dgn lecturer 2 discuss bout my MSc in research…hope it goes well so i can start on my proposal ASAP… at least x tertekan sangat dok rumah doing nothing…i can tell peeps that im working on my proposal, so it wont be consider as doing nothing..aite??…

ok…got to start packing..tido kat kolej tonite…so, no internet 4 2nite..gonna miss u my streamyx… (see how pathetic i am…dok rumah doing nothing n internet terpasang 24/7…no..lets make it 18/7 – i need to sleep 2 ok…)

Anyway…just hoping tomorrow and the days ahead will bring something 2 end up my nothingness …InsyaAllah…